Artwork Info

December 2016

Sculpture

Dimension variable




The last work means that last stage of the time with my grandma. It is my grandma’s death. Her death was a really big blow to me as she was one of my closest family members. She lived with me, take care me with me for so many years, at the same time, she was the first family member to leave me, to let me understand what death mean. Her death teach me how to face all negative emotions. I found that it was not only the end of her life but also the end of my, my brother’s, my cousins’ childhood. My grandfather died before I was born, so my grandma’s death really,

means a lot to me. She is just a symbol of my childhood. No matter how many years pass, she still treat me like I was four, her death let me found that one treat me like her anymore. Moreover, after her death I found that how to release such sadness is also one of the things that I have to learn. I must learn how to face those emotions after her death, to stay down or release then continue my life. Soon the final exam was coming, so I stop thinking about it. After the exam, I saw there are some video on youtube about sending off balloons to heaven, so I search for it.

I find it is quite common in western culture, it is not only help people to talk the death one but also healing the one alive. At the same time, I found that balloons could also be symbol for childhood, as all children love balloons and it always bring happiness to children. Therefore, I decided to use BALLOONS as my work, hope it may heal myself and meaning I have grown up.


First Draft

Originally, I want to use the white yarn again to knit a wed to wrap the balloons as the balloons can be my message send to heaven for my grandma and release these balloons in the air at the park near my home, which it is also a place I love to go when I was still a child. When I release these balloons it also mean that I was release from the pain as well and I am ready to end my childhood.


However, I found that the yarn was to heavy for the balloons which they cannot fly with the web. It let me noticed that it was reflecting my real situation that I am just forcing myself but not really release from the pain which I still miss her so much that but some part of me still not fully accept her death


Therefore I changed some details of my work to make more fit to my heart and feelings. I use paper writing some sentence of my feelings toward my grandma and cut it into slice to tie on string of the balloons as my words hat want to tell her and it will not affect the balloons to fly.


The web become my memory with her as it is one of the main reason that I could not accept her death just like the balloons cannot be release to the sky. It have been more suitable to shown my feeling andemotion after making the changes that even myself have release or not when can I be release.